New work

Well I've actually been working at last - and it feels good. I have to be honest and say that I had no idea that I hadn't been working - probably for a year or so.  I've been doing stuff and filling my time but not actually engaging with anything. It's been a pretty tough time, and being on my own has been quite hard to get used to, but I'm getting there now. 

 

 I'm working on a new project, which is giving me some focus and direction, and actually seems to be drawing together lots of different strands of my work, which can only be good. It's surprising how things which I hadn't made links between, after a bit of a break, seem obviously to part of the same thought process.

Before my 'non move' to London, I was working on ideas related to what it is to be 'female', the role that needlework and quilting play in female history, together with my own reactions towards 'empty nest syndrome' and menopause. I had intended to apply for  place on the MA at The Royal College of Art in the Textile Department. For some reason, when I decided not to go to London, I also seemed to stop working, and to a large extent stop thinking! Just sort of vegetated for a while. (And no funny comments about not noticing the difference!). Vegetating, yet constantly doing stuff, keeping busy, but really destructively so. Now I realise that there is no reason why i cant carry on with the work I hoped to be doing on an MA, just without being at college! If it sells it sells. If not, I haven't compromised AGAIN. This time it's just me, why should I compromise!

Now I feel I've turned a corner in my life. 51 - post menopausal - empty nest - and single?

Bring on the phase of the crone. I'm ready for you!